when you feel everyone just left your world it crashes

hmm... idk im at boyfriends house at first it was good and fun we spent time together buh then idk its like he takes things seriously HES SUCH A BIG BABY !
idk emotions emotions like i said im on a emotional rollercoster
why is that i miss how everything was before yeenno how their was no problem in our relationship how i used to open up to you and tell you everything how we just use to goof around before how you couldnt wait to see me or talk to me i miss that ! like idk i feel our relationship changes and i dont want it to change! I dont want things to be differnt, i miss smiling a lot i miss everything about how our relationship was before,
I MISS YOU! and everything about you. How come you cant be the type of guy that does anything for me make me feel special at least for a day, yenno cos i wanna feel special too not only you, its like im the only one fixing things in this relationship CAN YOU START ACKING LIKE A BOYFRIEND AND I CAN FINALLY ACK LIKE THE GIRLFRIEND IN THIS RELATIONSHIP INSTEAD OF ME BEING BOTH OF IT, its tiring yenno. !

143 you dont even know how much you mean to me why do you think i always put the pieces together when its brken. ! because i dont wanna loose you and everything that i say im real with you and i mean every word that i say when i say I PROMISE I KEEP IT! when i say I LOVE YOU I MEAN IT everything i say its truthful and no dishonesty,

ugh i feel so lonely in this relationship, its like when im reaching out for you i feel nothing theirs nothing, ! its suh LONELY!

SO DUMB

today in school their was like a rumor thing going around about a gang shootting,

shit like sheila said WHATS WRONG WITH THE WORLD NOW DAYS !
noone has a heart now days ! AYE SUS i swear haha

buh shhit so scary that kind like idk if its fake or rreal buh whatevers I JUST KNOW I AINT GOING WALMART FOR A WHILE NOW HAHA SO SCARY !


oky thats all for now
bye guys

WEDNESDAY !

In class its 8 51 just finished my teenbiz and im bored buh on mah teenbiz I got a good grade I GUESS !

hmm just finished running to mah phone at my teachers dest haha im charging mah phone because I didnt charge it much ! buht yeah I didnt answer it lmao, well I TRIED NOT TO aww my boyfriend called :[ I dont think he went school hmm that booger !
but anyways its first period and im bored

be back later with this....

BACK in foourth periood and just finish erasing all my things on this computer and yeahh
brb again

STUCK IN MAH HEAD !

its just stuck in mah head of what happend today like UGH i should of listein to you WHY DIDNT I now i feel shame >:{

shhhiiitttt so irritating now what are they going to think about me, im sorry for what i did i didnt want you to catch me SHUCKS,

IM STUPID IM DUMB i just wish I didnt see what i saw today GAH ! dumb me i should of just listein.

forwards and rewinds

As days past by i've noticed that generations will always continue and that people you love will not always be around. So im gonna make the time for myself and live life to the fullest as quoted. LIve it Enjoy it Excite it, thats how i see it. I should be having fun at this age because when im out of high school all your going to have is work and im still young and a kidd at heart so i should enjoy life right not an adult life at this point im to young for that shhhit! I should change my ways and stop being a snobb and judging. Start being nice and change So im going to try somthing new and fresh tomorrow morning once i wake up. I should be grateful for the things ive got in life and what i have. SO FRESH START TOMORROW.