13 more days to go...

So, it's almost my grandpas birthday September 16, & I'm pretty sad because it's like the first year having to celebrate his birthday with him no around anymore. Usually we would have it at his house but since that's been taking away I don't know what were gonna do for his birthday.. but I know for sure I'm gonna visit him. I miss my grandpa so much D; REST IN PARADISE/PEACE I LOVE YOU GRANDPA MUWAH.

LATELY....

(spent lot's of time with my boyfriend )

(I'M A SENIOR NOW YAY C/O 2011)

Got my own car Scion xb <3
Got a job now. Ralph Lauren
Been busy with school and balancing everything
Been going to the gym lately and yeah thats pretty much has been happening so far.

Whats been going on lately

-Schools still boring



(Retreat at Kalihi serving #89)






(Boyfriends Senior Prom "Passport To Romance" it was at Hiltons In waikiki)

I'm so frustrated, I still didn't get my monthly friend and it's almost the end of the month WHAT THE FUCK -_- my body is not producing right, and at the same time I'm scared cause all sorts of things are just going through my head, hawh I hate feeling like this, it makes me tell myself how dumb I was and what not..ugh never again i swear -_- IM IRRITATED,FRUSTRATED, AND I JUST WANT MY GOD DAMN MONTHLY FRIEND FUCK!!!!

Aunty kate and Zach visit

-Love spending time with my family

- Because I love how my boyfriend is always my shield and my rock I can lean on, pour my tears out and help me stay strong and is just always there for me through the hard times. I love my boyfriend <3

Grandpas funeral D:

So my grandpas funeral was on Saturday the 20th, I can't believe that day finally came. IT hit me that my grandpa ain't here no more and I wont be able to see him or hug him or even talk to him face to face like before. He is the best grandpa I will never forget always in my memories and my heart and this ain't goodbye this is a SEE YOU LATER okay grandpa. Your in gods kingdom now and our guardian angel. REST IN PARADISE GRANDPA I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS.

Love your enemy's as if they did nothing to you.-Kenneth (:

Late on one post

What boyfriend got me on valentines day. It was so cute because like as I was sleeping he kept texting me or calling me asking me where I am or what I'm doing. Then like all of a sudden it was 8 in the morning and my mom like wakes me up saying my boyfriends down stairs and I'm like literally WOKEN UP. I jumped out of bed and I was like 'what why is he here omg I wasn't even prepared' then my mother tells kenneth to come upstairs and so he does Then as I stay in the hall way thinking what to do first he has like a big heart shaped balloon singing 'YOUR STILL THE ONE, THAT MAKES ME SMILE, STILL THE ONE THAT I DREAM ABOUT. WERE STILL HAVING FUN AND YOUR STILL THE ONE' plus a dozen red roses it was so sweet and unexpected I was speechless hehe. So like anyways got ready since he was already there & then headed to his house and spend my valentines with him. It wasn't much but it was a good one especially spending it with the one you care about a lot. (: had a good valentines day hehe

So since me and my boyfriend been so busy for each other lately, we managed to not see each other/spend time with each other for 5 days which is super long to us. So finally got to spend the day with him which was very nice. I never missed him so much :) anyways we talked, ate and even took a short nap together it was nice and kinda cold too I love days like these :) spending my free time with the person I love so much :)

Rest In Peace Grandpa.

I'll think of this as a see you later not a goodbye.. I know your gonna be watching over me from above. I'm gonna miss you so much and I know tears and me missing you won't make you come back. All I have to do is accept the fact that the lord has took you from all the suffering you been through and put you to peace so you don't have to suffer anymore. But you were the bestest grandpa a gran-daughter could ask for, I know you weren't always there for me cause how sick you were, but I always love the company of seeing you with open arms and always making jokes Or you saying 'Aye my balasangko' & then you hug me so tight ;[ things won't be the same anymore with you gone and when I go to your house it'll be empty...I was just one more year away from graduating highschool and I wanted you to be there. But I'll just think of it as your spirit and love will be there for me through everything. I know your in a better place now with your family up above and your daughter + the lord is with you. I'm gonna miss you so much grandpa and it hurts not being able to see you or talk to you and getting those hugs from you which I'm gonna miss cause your hugs always gave me a warmth feeling which made everything feel better all the time I see you. I'm really gonna miss you cause I still can't believe your gone. But like I said I have to accept it. I'll see you later okay grandpa I love you so much and miss you a whole lot. May your soul rest in peace <3


September 16,1941-February 16,2010

'Find a heart that will love you at your worst and arms that will hold you at your weakest"-Tumblr

Cousin Mel's babyshower :)

(ME& MAMA MEL)

(Cousin's)

(Hello Kitty Cupcake)

(Aunties & Cousins<3)

Yesterday was my cousin Mel's 1st baby shower at Waipio, so went to her house like right after drivers ed which was around 4 & then spent mostly with Diyandra when I got there and her mommy. So like around 5ish people were coming and more were coming & more of the cousins were coming that I haven't seen or talked to in forever. So like yeah talked with Diyandra,Chynna & Chanice. So then we ate and omg the food was delicious(: After the food just chilled for a while talk more stories & then the games began hehe word scramble, guess the baby food, guess the candys in the diaper & finding words. It was fun but I didn't win anything but then my aunty sunny said shes gonna give me something when I leave so yeah :) Then after that went in the other garage and mel opened all her gifts and omg there was huge ones and cute ones and yeah all of it was hella cute :) After that everyone chilled and i talked more stories with my cousins and took pictures :) By 9sih my auntys uncles were drinking already even some of the cousins. Then by 10ish they all danced haha very hilarious :) then after that left around 10sih and yeah got home by 11. Loved my other side of the family, they always know how to have fun hehe gotta love them <3

(me and my girls <3)

Today was another freezing day I loved it (: but yeah so today's Thursday which means no school tomorrow cause furlough Fridays!!! so school was boring but lunch was fun as always & like after-school I got this missed called from Jeans warehouse which is where I applied for and then after-school listened to their voice mail and they told me to call them back and what not, so like I called them back and the lady Suzie which is the MANAGER set up an interview tomorrow at 9 in the morning before they open up. & I was excited because hopefully I'll get back to work, but then I'm also nervous cause I never had an interview before and I don't wanna look like a fool tomorrow -_- so all I have to do his pray and hope god guides me through this :)
Another day and another to talk about. Bye blogger.

Spent time with my cousins on my other side of my family (dad side) this ain't all of them trust me got a lot more cousins on my daddy side... We had this dinner with the PASION'S because my uncle ryan got married and so the dinner was in waipio at this chinese reastraunt. But I barely ate cause I aint a big fan of chinese food even though my nationality is half chinese. Anyways had fun with my cousins especially the new edition to the family my baby cousin bryden. ain't he adorable (; he's got rash on his face cause his sister keeps kissing him oh boy!!!
anywho can't wait to see more of them soon (;

Hello February,

So before the day of the first of FEB. Me & my boyfriend made Two years & One month (: didn't see him so whatevers, almost valentines day and I have no idea what I wan't to give my boyfriend D: still thinking of something nice to give him since he's been such a good boyfriend haha well kinda ;p
Omg & hawaii's weather has been so bipolar lately, first it was sunny and hot and the next day was raining like out of no where and today it's like freezing cold! ahh I dont want it to rain but I wan't the weather to be cold forever :) I love it...


Well my cousins babyshower is coming soon and baby planned to go movies on friday I HOPE he follows through this plan since he insisted -_-
anywhos gonna hit the sheets now good night blogger :)

Had a good day

It was a good day today (: Furlough Fridays so NO SCHOOL.
Anyways woke up from boyfriend call at 6:25 and got ready as fast as I could, cause me,him & his brother were going to UH. So got ready and forgot my breakfast. So me & my mom were already on the road at like 6:40ish and like got to babes house a minute before it hit 7 (: RIGHT ON TIME. But like when I got there boyfriends brother wasn't even awake yet haha, but babe had to take picture of the sunset for his photography class so we went in his backyard on this rock hill thingy that in the back of his house that has a really great view of the sunset and yeah we watched it rise like probably 7:15ish I'm guessing. It was nice, big and red very pretty (: Finally babes brother woke up and we were on the road like 7:20ish. Finally got to UH and his brothers dorm room hehe college like looks fun (: can't wait.. but anywho the dorms look cool got AC and everything for you. Me babe and his brother went to the cafe to go eat breakfast & I must say its very YUMMY all though I only ate cereal but still looks YUM!!! after eating breakfast went back to babes brothers dorm room and his brother went to go workout and me and babe were just relaxing, talking stories and watching t.v Then when babes brother came back like 9ish babes brother drew us a MAP to this fishing pond by UH and it was cool and an adventure (; got to see the pond while babes brother went to his class which was around 10ish. But pond we couldn't go closer because there were construction workers so me and babe went back to the dorm relaxed again and then took a nap felt good sleeping with the AC I must say I had a very good nap with my love. Woke up around 12:30ish cause babes brother came back to the dorm cause he was done with his class. & then after that we went back to babes house, & I was hungry cause I didn't have lunch so I made lunch for the both of us (: but babe was sleeping again -_- & then like 3ish babes cousins and friends all came at once the house came from only me and babe to like 9 people at the house. Oh my. So kindly me I made them two batches of brownies & omg it went by very fast it must of been that yummy (: at like 7ish me chan and courtney went to orangetree cause I wanted to eat something cold on this rainy weather and then after that we went longs because chan had to buy some CLIPS ! & as we were exiting I seen my dad haha he was asking if i wanted to come home but didnt wanna cause it was so early still. After that went babes house fed him the yogurt that I bought for me & him... Then around like 8ish everyone left for pats house and then me and babe were just talking while he was showering & then after that we played Jellyfish haha so fun but so irritating playing with my boyfriend cause he's coming beter and I'm just being junk at it so whatevers. Then like 9ish left babes house and now I'm home. Today was a good day (: loved it.

My friend in the purple..it was her 17 birthday :) hehe <3 her



School lately has been fun, being more focused in school and doing all my homework and what not. Even if my classes are boring this semester I love the people in it that keeps me awake. This school year is going by fast just a couple more months and then I'm gonna be a SENIOR omg. How scaarrry. But oh wells Im gonna be ready for college and the real world :)

I love him so much. I know I don't really show it as much but I reall am thankful for having such a understanding, loyal guy like you. Were so different and I love that about how different we are cause you fill in the missing places. I love you so much and I want this forever

Happy new year,

hehe I took this ;) it came out real nice plus it's christmas colors which make's it even more prettier. Well HAPPY NEW YEARS<3